Father’s Day Then and Now

Brian being such a great, loving, and dedicated father and partner means very much to me. I never had a father growing up. I had father figures, but just that – figures.Β Shadows. Phantoms.

I’m not saying I feel like the father figures I grew up having didn’t actually love me, or that my love for them isn’t real. It very much is, and I appreciate them so very much. I love looking at old photos of when I was tiny, because my Uncle Butch is probably either holding me or somewhere beside me in at least half of them. He grew up without a father too, so we’ve always had a special bond. My Papaw is the most important man in my life, and I can tell he looks at me differently than the other grandkids. He knows I see him as more than just Papaw. I see him as close to a father as I can.

My father was and still is an alcoholic. He and my mom divorced when I was 3. The first time I remember meeting him, I was 7 years old and we lived an hour away from here with my step-dad at the time and his son. I remember him crying and saying I was so big and so pretty. When you’re 7 years old, you don’t realize things.

At 7 years old, I didn’t realize how my father was never really a father, not even to his son, my half brother. I didn’t realize his tears were probably full of guilt and anxiety. I didn’t realize when my mom calmly asked, “Autumn… Your dad is here to meet you. Want to put on a pretty dress?” behind her voice was more than likely anger, fear, hatred. I didn’t realize plans to the roller rink being cancelled wasn’t really getting my hopes crushed.

Despite the ups and downs I’ve had with what little relationship I have with my father, I’ve managed not to be psychologically screwed up the ass. I’m a pretty freaking awesome mom, and I had a daughter with a really amazing guy. He is changing my view on what being a father means every day. He’s making dads around the world look a little better to me. I never thought all dads were crap or anything like that… but I’m less likely to think something negative about my dad when I see other great dads with their children.

So, happy father’s day to Brian, to my Papaw, to my Uncle Butch, to my Uncle Ray, to my soon-to-be father-in-law Randy, and to all the other dedicated and loving dads out there. You’re doing something great for your family.

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Busy busy busy…

So I’ve been very busy lately, doing lots of mommy things. This is why I haven’t completely blown off my questions of the day. For almost a week.

😦 Shame on me.

But I am happy to welcome new followers and hope I gain a few more here and there. πŸ™‚ And here is one big post full of 5 questions because I’m too lazy to make 6 separate posts and readjust all of the date just to try to fool everyone! haha.

What are three of your favorite songs right now?
Migraine – Twenty One Pilots
Ships in the Night – Mat Kearny
Thrift Shop – Macklemore & Ryan Lewis (I’m always late on the radio bandwagon

What is your biggest goal, currently?
To finish this crochet blanket I’m making for someone before our family vacation so I have some extra $$$ πŸ™‚

What’s something you wish you could do?
Skateboard. 😦

What do you collect?
Vintage and antique cameras ❀ ❀ ❀

Favorite trend right now?
Peplum! Love it.

How are you today?
I’m pretty great today. I’ve had a nice, easy day with Madison, except for a little bit of fussiness here and there due to teething. She’s always such a good girl though, and such a pleasure to have. She makes my day, every day. ❀

 

So there are 6 questions to get me all caught up. Whoops! Not even two weeks in and I’m already bailing. No! I will not! I must stick to this! Wish me luck! ;/

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Hear those bells ringing?

I sure do. Know why?

I BOUGHT MY WEDDING DRESS TODAY!
I went into David’s Bridal with Elisha, tried on four or five gowns, and found. my. dress.

I am ABSOLUTELY freaking OUT! I’m so excited! We may not be having a wedding for 16 months but I don’t care! I couldn’t have imagined a dress that suits me more. πŸ™‚

This dress.

This sash.

A flower crown.

Gold TOMS/flats.

Ahhhh!!

 

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Wedding Dress Shopping

Tomorrow my best friend, Elisha, and I are going wedding dress shopping!!! Yeeee! I’m so excited. It’s going to be just us. πŸ™‚ This is bittersweet. I was hoping my mom would be able to go with us, but there have been a few issues lately and she isn’t going to be able to go.

We are, however, taking miss Maddie Summer with us. I’m excited to get her out of the house… We hardly ever go anywhere except to visit my grandparents. Plus, I love showing her off. πŸ˜‰ We may be taking a four day/three night trip soon with her so I’d like to prepare he a little bit for it.

Since I breastfeed, I’m a little nervous about taking her out when I’ll be trying on the dresses, so I think I’m going to pack a bottle. I just hope she won’t be picky about the temperature since the temperature is always just right when it’s “straight from the tap.”

Here are the two dresses I’m definitely trying on!

Regular $499, sale price $249

Regular $1028, sale price $449

The first dress is one Brian and I agree is beautiful. His idea of beautiful and entirely different than mine, so this was MAJOR. The second dress has been in my wedding Pinterest board for over a year, before we even became engaged.

Brian’s idea of a beautiful wedding dress is bright white, strapless, tight fitting, flare/ballgown. My idea of a beautiful wedding dress is ivory/antique white/off white, lace, a-line, quirky sleeves. I love a dress that looks like it has a little bit of history to it. I want our wedding to have a warm, vintage feel. There are a couple of other dresses I’m going to be trying on, but those are the two I’m really loving.

Check out my Very Rose Wedding Pinterest board!

Themes and colors I’d like for our wedding include lace, pearls, gold, teal, branches, dahlias, camellias, peach/blush, antique/aged white, grey, organic, natural, vintage, homey-feel, and moss.

We are having a fall wedding, and oddly enough, I hate traditional fall weddings. Fall is my absolute favorite time of year (I always joke about moving to that one place in California that “stays fall all year”) and I love everything about it. But a fall wedding doesn’t have to be fall themed! I want the beautiful leaves to be our canvas, our background. I want the red, orange and yellow to be the bokeh in our photos. I don’t want leaves and twine and fruit for the table toppers and centerpieces. I’m not all traditional, I like a little quirkiness. πŸ™‚

There’s so much more to a wedding than I realized… I keep forgetting about so many little things. Luckily, Elisha is like, wedding-obsessed (no really, she knows every neckline, every dress shape, designers I’ve never heard of, venues around the state, and the best and latest trends) so she will be straight up with me on what looks good, what looks awful, and what I’m forgetting. Did I mention she’s also my maid of honor? πŸ™‚

Alright… I guess that’s my blurb for the day. Hopefully I’ll be able to sleep tonight, I’m so excited to go try on some dresses!!

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The Life of a Babe

Madison just turned three months old 2 days ago. Three months old!!! Can you believe that?!?! It’s a little hard for me to believe… I feel like she’s been here forever, in some ways, yet I also feel like she was just born a few days ago. I love watching her grow, but it’s bittersweet. I’m so eager to see who she will be but at the same time… I love everything about her rightΒ now.

Sigh.

Any way! Here is what the schedule of a breastfed 3 month old and a stay-at-home-mom looks like:

10:30: Wake up! In my shallow sleep, I have felt Maddie Summer kicking around and moving for a few minutes and realized she isn’t just getting comfy in her sleep, she’s waking up for the day. We will probably lay around for a few more minutes talking, cuddling and kissing. She normally isn’t hungry right now because she, for whatever reason, has been waking up 30 minutes or so after eating.

After we make it out of bed, we get changed into a new diaper and a new outfit. Then while Mads spends some time in her bouncy seat, I will brush my teeth, eat a quick breakfast, etc, and just get woke up… If she allows it! Most days she doesn’t mind to sit down as long as she can watch a little bit of the Baby First channel or watch me, and if she has her paci. Some days she’s fussy-butt and I have to carry her around everywhere.

11:30: Her morning nap time. It’s like clockwork, every morning, about an hour after she wakes up, she’s ready to go back to sleep. This is normally when I water my flowers and plants outside. When I make it back in, most days I give in and have a little morning nap of my own.

12-12:30: Wake up from our nap. Mads will want to eat (she still eats only on one breast) and then she will get a diaper change. She only takes about 5 minutes to nurse. I got extremely lucky and have a baby girl who latched on the first time she ever tried and she gets what she wants out of me and we’re done!

1: We will do tummy time. Lately she doesn’t like it. Yesterday, she was so aggravated about being on her belly, tried to roll over!!!!! I was ecstatic! she had one little arm tucked down and the other pushing and her knee bent and her little foot just kicking! She was not liking tummy time at all. She never minded it before. During tummy time today she started to fuss and cry a little bit so we only stayed for about 2 minutes.

1:30-2: She’ll take a nap anywhere between these times. She’ll probably only sleep for thirty minutes or so.

2:30: Time to eat again. She eats pretty frequently lately. Sometimes every hour. I think it might be a 3-month-old thing. I believe she’s going through a bit of a growth spurt. After eating, she gets another diaper change and we will probably look around her nursery. She has an owl nursery and we have lots of different owls everywhere. There’s a red one that is her (ahem, my) favorite and she will stare at him forever!

3: I have started working out lately, so while I work out, she will be in her bouncy seat and either watch Baby First TV or watch mommy.

3:45: After I cool down for a few minutes, we will walk around the house, look out windows, play with some toys.

4: Boob time & diaper change.

4:15: Nap time for Maddie Summer, computer/crochet/food time for mommy. I generally snack on and off throughout the day since breastfeeding makes me so freaking hungry! I eat more than my fiance, I swear I do.

5:30: Wake up, eat, diaper change. We walk around the house a lot and look outside a lot so we will probably do this again. We go outside every other day as well. She LOVES to go outside! She just can’t see enough!

6:45- 7: Eat, diaper change. We visit my grandparents, her great-grandparents, some time every day. Normally around 7. I plan this so that I can watch Jeopardy and Wheel of Fortune with them, haha!

8: We go back home for bath time! Mads always gets a bath some time between 8 and 9 every night.

9:30: Eat, and she will probably take her last cat nap. She hangs out in her bouncy seat a lot at night so that she knows it’s a less active/more boring time. We talk to her, but not as excitingly or loud.

10: Wake up, get a diaper change, and eat.

10:30-11: She will go to sleep for the night. She normally sleeps for a 3.5 to 4 hour stretch that first time.Β  I will go to sleep around 1 or so, sometimes I stay up until she wakes up to eat.

2: Eat

5: Eat

7:30-8: Eat

10: Eat

And then we start all over πŸ™‚ This just an average day. Of course hours may be off by a little bit, our schedule isn’t THAT strict, but this is mostly what our days look like unless we have a visitor or get out of the house.

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Influenster VoxBox – Ivory 2-in-1 Hair & Body Wash REVIEW

I’ve been on Influenster since July 2nd of last year (almost a year!) and I’ve received three VoxBoxes. I haven’t reviewed any of the products I’ve received anywhere besides the Influenster website, but I’d like to start, so here goes!

A month or so ago, I got the Ivory 2-in-1 Hair & Body Wash VoxBox in the mail. It came with the 2-in-1 and a coupon for $(I forgot how much) off. It looks like:

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It costs $3.47 at Walmart. I used it a few times to get a good feel for it. Being a new mom, I have to take quick showers if I’m home alone, and most of the time even if someone is watching her and she isn’t hanging out in her vibrating bouncy seat, snoozing away in the bathroom corner. So there’s one pro: Makes showering quicker. If you’re in a real hurry (ex., you breastfeed, don’t have any unfrozen milk, are in the shower, alone, your babe wakes up and is hungry… yikes) you can just rinse your hair out, scrub a little here and there and wherever needed, and your super quick shower is over and you got the goods clean.

Another pro: as a body wash, it smells soooooo goooooood. Like, heavenly. And a con: as aΒ shampoo, it smells.. alright. Isn’t that weird? Delicious smelling body wash, average smelling shampoo? Well that’s how it is, for me at least.

Pro: made my skin feel clean and silky smooth, didn’t feel like I couldn’t get it all rinsed off like some body washes do (didn’t leave residue).

Con: And this is the biggest one for me. It left my hair feeling weird and plastic-y… You know the texture I’m talking about? Like you just took a shower in really hard water? We don’t really have hard water, but I’ve experienced this with several shampoos. It made my hair hard to comb out, was a little tangly, and it had that weird plastic-y texture. Because of this I don’t wash my hair with it anymore – and I did try it in as a shampoo more than once, three times actually, just to test it out again – which defeats the purpose of the 2-in-1. I do still use it as a body wash and, throwing another pro: it’s a gentle body wash. I am sensitive to body washes with strong fragrances so I was really pleased that I could use something than a plain ole Dove bar of soap. πŸ™‚

So, overview:

PRICE:$3.47 at Walmart – reasonable, average

PROS:
Makes showering quicker
Smells great as a body wash
Smooth skin with no residue
Gentle on sensitive skin (for me at least)

CONS:
Average smelling shampoo
Made my hair a weird texture

VERDICT:
Would recommend for new moms, would probably brush it off for anyone else
Not on my buy list
Enjoying using it while I have it

So, I hope you got something out of my review! Thanks for reading and tell me if you got this one or use this product and what you think. πŸ™‚

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Hello Internet World!

Hi there! I’m Autumn. You can learn some basic info about me and my family on the sidebar! I’m a photographer and a mommy to Maddie Summer. My fiance is Brian and we are the Roses. πŸ™‚

Well… I am not quite a Rose yet, but I will be! October of next year, to be exact. I can’t wait!

Here are some better introductions to our little family…

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This is Maddie and I! Some quick facts about us… We love breastfeeding! I collect vintage and antique cameras, and Madison collects jam – finger jam, toe jam, neck jam, armpit jam, etc. I am a bit of a crafty old lady and a bit of a DIY queen. I love to crochet, scrapbook, plant and grow flowers and basically anything else artistic. I also love to build things and make something out of nothing. Maddie hates to take naps, Mommy loves them (and may be part cat, could sleep 18/24 hrs). We have a Mini Schnauzer named Abbey Buttons and a German Shepard named Zorro.

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This is Brian, my fiance aka Daddio. He’s hardworking, a family man, crazy about his girls, and my future husband. We are almost exactly opposite, but I think it works. πŸ˜‰ I’m introverted, he’s extroverted. I’m a bit of a hermit and he’s a social butterfly. He’s a people person and I’m super socially awkward (yet a photographer.. yikes!). He likes modern, sleek, dark, new. I love vintage, antique, rustic, worn out, aged, sentimental. He’s hard headed, impulsive, on the move and I’m patient, a dilly-dally-er, and like to wander. We are entirely different but we click perfectly. I’m glad he’s the other half of our daughter. πŸ™‚

Those are the basics. I’m sure you’ll get to know us a bit more. I will be the only one blogging, but my family is my world, so I will undoubtedly have lots to say about them both. πŸ™‚

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