Hello Again

Wow, okay. So it’s been over a year since I last posted. That’s pretty terrible! I am hoping to dedicate more time to blogging this year. I’ve deemed 2015 as the year of self expression. I want to be totally creative this year. I want it to become a habit-like act that I’m just insanely creative, thoughtful and dedicated to everything I do! I tend to get a little lazy when it comes to fulfilling creative ideas I have, and I really, really hate that. So here’s to 2014 for being great for business, and to 2015 for being full of creative and wonderful opportunities. 🙂

So onto what I actually wanted to blog about! I’ve made a vow to take more conceptual and fine art photography this year, along with capturing some little snippets of Mads more often. I’ve done a pretty great job of getting a monthly photo of her since she was born, but I really want to get some photos of her more often. I’m committing to weekly. I know I’m not even two weeks in, but I’m thinking this is going to be way easier than I had originally thought. I’m so excited!

Here are some photos I’ve already created and taken in 2015!

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This was before it had snowed any this year, and I was dying for it to! It’s been so bitterly, brutally cold that I just had to at least pretend there was some snow out there. So I got cozy and comfy in front of the window, snapped a few, and edited in some snow in post! It was a fun little practice edit for when I start booking sessions and (because I know some will) clients ask me to make it snow. 😉

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I’ve titled this “Another Land.” Completely inspired by my love of all things fairytale and Once Upon A Time (winter break, will you be over already?!?!), maybe a little bit of Grimm too, which I’ve just started watching. I have all the details about my photoshoot and post-work process on my photography blog!

And of course, here are some photos starring my quirky, feisty and funny gal. 🙂 ♥

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She loves her bath time sooo much. Plus it’s the only time she will let me put her hair in a bun (SO FREAKIN’ CUTE) if I’m not washing it hat particular bath. Recently I’ve started putting bubbles in her bath and she LOVES it. She called it “bubble stack” instead of bubble bath, for whatever reason hahaha. She has a big list of words she likes to add the letter k to at the end. Just one of her perfect little quirks. ♥

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She loves to play “dark.” We put a blanket over our heads and she whispers little secrets to me, like we’re hiding from Daddy. It’s the cutest. I built her an awesome fort the other night with a blanket and used a kitchen chair and the couch to drape it over. She was over the moon! She promptly ran under it and motioned with her hand for me to join her and said, “Dark, Mommy!” Then she asked for Gabba (YouTube on my phone to watch Yo Gabba Gabba). She was totally serious and concentrated on finding a video to watch. I couldn’t resist.

Moving on! Do I have other resolutions? Hmm.. Take better care of my teeth. But I think that’s too ordinary and really no reason to wait until January 1st to start doing, so I’m not really going to consider it a resolution. Haha! I’d like to read more, but I’m not going to push that because hopefully I will be too busy editing photos for my clients to read! It’s been so slow lately.. I can’t wait to do some boudoir and Valentine’s Day shoots, which are both coming up very soon. I have the most adorable prop idea and I want to yell about it all over the internet but I have to keep it a secret! 😡

Okay. So there’s my long-awaited update. I’m really hoping to dedicate more time to blogging! I mean it!

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Growing Inspiration

First of all, it’s been way too long since I’ve updated! I’ve been putting it off because I have had lots to do around the house lately and because Maddie Summer got her shots and her teething is killing her!

When we got her shots the other day, she was totally miserable that evening and some of the day after. I felt so bad for my sweet girl… all she wanted to do was cuddle with mommy or daddy. It’s a special feeling, to be able to cuddle your child and know, without words or their verbal confirmation, that YOU are the only thing that can make them feel the best they can feel… I love that. I hate that my baby girl was feeling so terrible and had such a fever, but I love being able to be there for her and comfort her.

In other news! Lately I’ve been easily inspired by tons of things. I have a couple of photoshoots scheduled for Monday and they’re both creative and conceptual, the type of photography I started out doing. The kind of photography that owns my heart and soul. I should have never allowed myself to have such a long absence from something that makes me so happy.

Brian’s co-worker gave me a film camera with two lenses that he bought a couple of years ago for a photography class. He doesn’t use them anymore and offered them to Brian since he know I’m a photographer, and Brian knew I would love them and took them. I bought some film and tested it out… and I fell in love. I could feel myself glowing. I was meant to be a photographer! It makes me a certain typ of happy that I don’t feel with anything else. 🙂

Speaking of photography… I changed the name of my photography! I’m now Blooming Rose Photography. Is that a little cheesy? 😉 I don’t care! I love it. I think it really represents me and my life and I want to be able to represent myself in a way that I can shine through each photo. You know?

Here are some recent photos I’ve taken!

I had to stand very still for this shot… and for a long time. Every time a hummingbird would come up to the feeder, the most I would move was my hand to focus my manual Rokinon lens! And then when it would fly away, I’d inch a little bit closer, going unnoticed by the next hummingbird to fly up and get a drink.

That’s it for now 🙂 I’ll try to keep updated more often!

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Father’s Day Then and Now

Brian being such a great, loving, and dedicated father and partner means very much to me. I never had a father growing up. I had father figures, but just that – figures. Shadows. Phantoms.

I’m not saying I feel like the father figures I grew up having didn’t actually love me, or that my love for them isn’t real. It very much is, and I appreciate them so very much. I love looking at old photos of when I was tiny, because my Uncle Butch is probably either holding me or somewhere beside me in at least half of them. He grew up without a father too, so we’ve always had a special bond. My Papaw is the most important man in my life, and I can tell he looks at me differently than the other grandkids. He knows I see him as more than just Papaw. I see him as close to a father as I can.

My father was and still is an alcoholic. He and my mom divorced when I was 3. The first time I remember meeting him, I was 7 years old and we lived an hour away from here with my step-dad at the time and his son. I remember him crying and saying I was so big and so pretty. When you’re 7 years old, you don’t realize things.

At 7 years old, I didn’t realize how my father was never really a father, not even to his son, my half brother. I didn’t realize his tears were probably full of guilt and anxiety. I didn’t realize when my mom calmly asked, “Autumn… Your dad is here to meet you. Want to put on a pretty dress?” behind her voice was more than likely anger, fear, hatred. I didn’t realize plans to the roller rink being cancelled wasn’t really getting my hopes crushed.

Despite the ups and downs I’ve had with what little relationship I have with my father, I’ve managed not to be psychologically screwed up the ass. I’m a pretty freaking awesome mom, and I had a daughter with a really amazing guy. He is changing my view on what being a father means every day. He’s making dads around the world look a little better to me. I never thought all dads were crap or anything like that… but I’m less likely to think something negative about my dad when I see other great dads with their children.

So, happy father’s day to Brian, to my Papaw, to my Uncle Butch, to my Uncle Ray, to my soon-to-be father-in-law Randy, and to all the other dedicated and loving dads out there. You’re doing something great for your family.

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The Life of a Babe

Madison just turned three months old 2 days ago. Three months old!!! Can you believe that?!?! It’s a little hard for me to believe… I feel like she’s been here forever, in some ways, yet I also feel like she was just born a few days ago. I love watching her grow, but it’s bittersweet. I’m so eager to see who she will be but at the same time… I love everything about her right now.

Sigh.

Any way! Here is what the schedule of a breastfed 3 month old and a stay-at-home-mom looks like:

10:30: Wake up! In my shallow sleep, I have felt Maddie Summer kicking around and moving for a few minutes and realized she isn’t just getting comfy in her sleep, she’s waking up for the day. We will probably lay around for a few more minutes talking, cuddling and kissing. She normally isn’t hungry right now because she, for whatever reason, has been waking up 30 minutes or so after eating.

After we make it out of bed, we get changed into a new diaper and a new outfit. Then while Mads spends some time in her bouncy seat, I will brush my teeth, eat a quick breakfast, etc, and just get woke up… If she allows it! Most days she doesn’t mind to sit down as long as she can watch a little bit of the Baby First channel or watch me, and if she has her paci. Some days she’s fussy-butt and I have to carry her around everywhere.

11:30: Her morning nap time. It’s like clockwork, every morning, about an hour after she wakes up, she’s ready to go back to sleep. This is normally when I water my flowers and plants outside. When I make it back in, most days I give in and have a little morning nap of my own.

12-12:30: Wake up from our nap. Mads will want to eat (she still eats only on one breast) and then she will get a diaper change. She only takes about 5 minutes to nurse. I got extremely lucky and have a baby girl who latched on the first time she ever tried and she gets what she wants out of me and we’re done!

1: We will do tummy time. Lately she doesn’t like it. Yesterday, she was so aggravated about being on her belly, tried to roll over!!!!! I was ecstatic! she had one little arm tucked down and the other pushing and her knee bent and her little foot just kicking! She was not liking tummy time at all. She never minded it before. During tummy time today she started to fuss and cry a little bit so we only stayed for about 2 minutes.

1:30-2: She’ll take a nap anywhere between these times. She’ll probably only sleep for thirty minutes or so.

2:30: Time to eat again. She eats pretty frequently lately. Sometimes every hour. I think it might be a 3-month-old thing. I believe she’s going through a bit of a growth spurt. After eating, she gets another diaper change and we will probably look around her nursery. She has an owl nursery and we have lots of different owls everywhere. There’s a red one that is her (ahem, my) favorite and she will stare at him forever!

3: I have started working out lately, so while I work out, she will be in her bouncy seat and either watch Baby First TV or watch mommy.

3:45: After I cool down for a few minutes, we will walk around the house, look out windows, play with some toys.

4: Boob time & diaper change.

4:15: Nap time for Maddie Summer, computer/crochet/food time for mommy. I generally snack on and off throughout the day since breastfeeding makes me so freaking hungry! I eat more than my fiance, I swear I do.

5:30: Wake up, eat, diaper change. We walk around the house a lot and look outside a lot so we will probably do this again. We go outside every other day as well. She LOVES to go outside! She just can’t see enough!

6:45- 7: Eat, diaper change. We visit my grandparents, her great-grandparents, some time every day. Normally around 7. I plan this so that I can watch Jeopardy and Wheel of Fortune with them, haha!

8: We go back home for bath time! Mads always gets a bath some time between 8 and 9 every night.

9:30: Eat, and she will probably take her last cat nap. She hangs out in her bouncy seat a lot at night so that she knows it’s a less active/more boring time. We talk to her, but not as excitingly or loud.

10: Wake up, get a diaper change, and eat.

10:30-11: She will go to sleep for the night. She normally sleeps for a 3.5 to 4 hour stretch that first time.  I will go to sleep around 1 or so, sometimes I stay up until she wakes up to eat.

2: Eat

5: Eat

7:30-8: Eat

10: Eat

And then we start all over 🙂 This just an average day. Of course hours may be off by a little bit, our schedule isn’t THAT strict, but this is mostly what our days look like unless we have a visitor or get out of the house.

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